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What I am thinking now:)

Its 6:30 pm...Like every day I am staying late in the office..Piles and piles of work is there as usual surrounding my mind from all ways.. There is no scope of escape. My colleague sitting next to me aims high to go and play football in the evening with fellow friends but there is no chance to escape for him as well. He just left his seat so may be luck is charming upon him, but not on me. Cracking morning noise in the gym as I used to reach my office, my life is here only till 8 all time. Spending time on sheets and moreover employees’ communication mails is my favorite pastime. I neither hate nor I tend to enjoy much but yes that’s my work and I have to excel in that. And I am proud about how well I accomplish that every day. Yes, I keep that pride as that only makes me feel alive here. I am looking for a piece of novelty today, here I am staying and sitting in front of my notebook sharing some sorts of thing with you..Yes with you

My mind has always been very active right from my school times till post graduation and is continuing till now. This line is not describing my prideness but indicates that my mind has never been on any rest vacation. It thinks and bubble thoughts. It always got merged into the deepest wave of ocean or may be wish to roar till the highest cloud.

Since I started working in bigwig organization, speed of my mind has tensely increased. You think that this has taken me far from you. But I just want to tell you that my mind is still there in you. It is located from past 4.5 years in the same shell that ignited our love and created springs of the true belongingness between you and me. Distances have been there and they will be till the cruelty lies in this lone world. Race to be in the higher lines will always tend to show some illusion to me or to you, but you can anytime have a glimpse of my eyes and you will come to know the dove truth. The truth that has bind two pretty faces of this earth with the purest flame of togetherness. I solely devote my time to you, my full life to you.

The speediness of time, the pressure of hour and commitment of work has intensified my mind but the vagueness of this innocent heart, beats of these cute little eyes and the devotion of this soul lies with you only. I want to be someone like achiever but my ultimate solace is with you only. So, with this thought, my mind is feeling much relaxed now. I am feeling much better, flushed is all today’s work and there is sense of pride in me like never before. Pride that I am what I want to be and pride that I am with someone like you.
Hey, my colleague has just moved on to play football and to kick out his fatigue (with hope to overload it again) and other one just about moving to escalate himself into the treadmill.

And here your tiny angel packing her bag to keep going…Missing you like bells in my heart 

It rained beyond my thoughts:)

Today it rained. And this was beyond my dreams. I failed to make such dream come true when I was with you. In the presence of pretty friends and lovely place, I dreamed to get poured up in your arms with all droplets approaching me. I wished to be wrapped in goofy leaves of rainwater and a smash that could have turned you and me till seventh heaven.
While these droplets touched floor, I standing at the sixth floor can feel the breeze that touched my heart in the similar way the sensation touched me when I was with you. And if that time, these noisy droplets could have been with me, I am sure you would have loved me like anything. I am smiling and fantasying being part of those ravishing pals yet my nearby thinking me as a stupid small town girl gazing rain in a steep hunger.
It’s June but why I am feeling so cold and all my body is shivering to find solace in cozy arms of yours. I am sitting in this man made space, yet I want my Man right beside me. My love what is the connection between rain and love, what’s the link that strings rain to you. When rain comes why I want you, when droplets occur why I feel for you?
The charm of rain bells in everyone’s heart. My love all these rainy seasons have passed in the long patent wait for you. And now when again nature is giving platform for solace in your shoulders, what can be more pleasant than dancing with you in the shadows of this lovely rain.

All these work had been a cruel web spider catching my hold from all zones. What to think and what to say, all picked up already by this hectic work. I am staying late in office today as well, but somehow I ‘m enjoying. Somehow I am bit relaxed. From the fizzy glass walls, when this heartfelt the jives of water till then and now my mind and whole soul are feeling a bit relaxed. Eyes were widened up with astonishment with the cheer of my smile enjoying full in the rain. Even I got chance to mix with water a little with a scoop of ice –cream. I felt you my love and it relaxed me so much. I am not feeling like to work, no tension is there. I am feeling like to get drunk in you, and dancing with you.
Dance with you in rain, enjoy with you in this season, in this life now and forever. Your tiny angel seems happy. Come and have a look at your angel’s face.

Why life cannot be a fairy tale

While running on the treadmill I see you... You are there next to the gate that unfolds our office environment. You are there smiling and trying to catch me as much as can with the deepest modesty on your pretty face. You are in so much comfort amidst the shining shades of bright sun. And with you in front of me with a journey of few meters and full glass wall in between, my strength lacks to the machine for run. Now I want to run towards you and to grasp your arms now resting on the hot rods of the gate. You so gentle, calm n passionate enough just to watch me from there. And I so wild, eager and annoyed for not be in your arms. I want to cuddle you just right away and to wait for time! Not surely my way my love.
But can I turn backwards and take a long journey to come and touch you or I have power to break this mirror wall right now and run to you ?I don’t want to miss a single sight to not behold you in my eyes. Thinking about you and just you and now when the reality stuck, what I need is simply you.

What can be done and what I want to do is par the limits standing at the 10th floor. The same what happened last year can’t be acted upon this time. Now I will not let life evaporate from these little palms. You said for 2 minutes and time took you back without a glow of touch. Shall I just watch you from here and you like all-time waiting for your angel. You love to gaze into my eyes but I admire your gentle touch. It feels like I’m the most fortunate on this earth when surrounded in your arms. I will die if not in your surroundings for a longer span. I simply need you as I’m born to be yours from the infinite time of nature. My love I will not miss the time for not watching you and waste in counting the stairs and crossing people. May some eternal power mesmerize some magic for me right beside you in a moment?
Rain fall everyday but droplets of your presence make me alive like being lone standing on sahara desert. May be the oceans turn human power up and down but the waves of your smiling face cuddles me in counted number. This is the time when Delhi facing heat with the utmost uproar but your tiny artu feels the pain on every beat. How I will let go even a second with not seeing you and waste it crossing unworthy substances. I will not let this moment go in haste. No matter will stand here and watching you. With you I fell the pleasures of this amazing life and with you I feel blessed.
But now I’m not finding you?? Where are you? I just closed my eyes for a blink and you like gone again. Don’t leave me please, I am nothing without you. You my only aura, I need you my love. I am like a sand from sea shore in the sky with nor my foots on earth and neither my hands in bluish world. Where are you? You always use to feel pride by seeing me the most beautiful girl on this earth and with my eyes your motive to feel alive, so now what??
Is this a moment of vagueness as I can feel you now touching me slowly and me sliding in your arms for the love till eternity. And all off a sudden there is presence of rainbows spread in all the mirrors right from 10th till ground floor. All can see us and our pretty love glowing in our eyes captivating all hearts like the precious prism. I am so happy to found you and happiest that I am in your arms now.

Love you much sweetheart, this life is full with matter of you, starts with you and will evaporate with the purest glow of your love till this whole life.

days are not changing..

Days are the same yet
Moment is changing
I waana think about you baby
All the time and gazing into your eyes
But that’s the life yet not shaking
I still tremble and waiting to see you worth all life…

Spreading all sheets over
With the dizzy looks at this surface
Feel like to breathe yesterday moments
I am still standing at Cloud 9
Mountains and those foggy eyes
Have to sleep in those moments
And reaching my paradise